There’s a girl in my life. Her name is Span, and while this writing is going to probably seem trite, I’ve just got to express my love and this is one of the few ways I know how. Ever since I met her she’s been that guiding lantern in my life. Whenever I stray from the path, she brings me back on, sure to guide me to the destination of love. Whenever I do something stupid or ignore a responsibility, she gives me a kind whack over the head (and it truly is kind) and reminds me I need to do it. Just the other day in NHS I was spitting off some stupid stuff about how I didn’t want to do it for some stupid reason like it was too much work. But she told me it was a good idea for college apps and in addition pointed out that we would be able to spend a lot more time together. Of course I joined, and I’m glad she was there to prevent me from being an idiot. And whenever I get over worried or worked up in something, she calms me down. The other day when my chest was hurting, she told me it was probably just a soar muscle. And when I told her how overwhelmed I was, she promised she would help me finish all my work. How many girls would do that? How many people would do that? Sacrifice their precious time and effort to help another. That’s altruism. And that’s impossible to come by these days. But I guess anything is possible in love. She’s that person I can have a good time with; not only my lover, but my whimsical best friend. I dance with her, “sing” to her, and joke with her. She tells me jokes and teases me, but its always fun. Just tonight we pretended we were crazy civil war soldiers who were shooting at each other and I shot her big toe and pinky and she shot my ass and **** off. I know, its harsh, but eventually she sewed it back on. Yeah, ok, most people are gonna call us freaks, but hell, its fun, its entertaining, and it always makes me smile and brightens my day. But most of all, she’s my lover. It seems like I say I love you every 10 minutes, if not to her then in my head or dreams. And while some would say its overused and lost its meaning, I know it hasn’t, and I feel it hasn’t. I still feel that love of which I speak and write and it still feels pretty friggen good. Amazing. Awesome. Indescribable. All those words that I’ve ever used and all these words Im using, that is what love is. To be honest, I should write Span a lot more. Hell I should write her every day to profess my love, but I don’t. I’m far from perfect, but the beauty of Span is she always understands. I don’t know how she puts up with some of the stuff I do, but she does, and I think the kindness she displays in such times is perhaps one of the greatest expressions of her love.
What can I say? I love her. I love her so much. I need her. That’s why I mumble in my sleep and cry (literally, though I haven’t told her) out for her when I don’t have her. That’s why I let all the guys call me whipped. Because I’m at the point where I have all I need: Span. And honestly, while other stuff does matter, as long as I have her I know I can survive. And I know I’ll always have her, so fuck all of you that say I won’t, because I will. Love is all I have and all I’m filled with. I love Span more than anyone could imagine and I thank God every day for the fact that I have her. It truly is amazing that a girl from south India could meet a boy from Texas let alone hook up with him. That’s a miracle and I know it’s a sign she’ll be mine forever. I love you Span, forever and ever, and I will never let you go.
Your Squishy Foreber and eber wit wots of wuv,
Nick
“When you have seen as much of life as I have, you will not underestimate the power of obsessive love.”
“We can only learn to love by loving.”
“There is no remedy for love but to love more.”
“Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.”
“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”
“Love is everything it's cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.”
“To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.”
Span’s Favorite ;): “The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.”
“To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.”
“Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age.”
“To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.”
“To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.”
“For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks, the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.”
“I don’t think anyone can DO anything that would make him worthy of love. Love is a gift and cannot be earned. It can only be given.”
“The important thing was to love rather than to be loved.”
And finally “One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love.”
I LOVE YOU SPAN. | 
