Wow, so its been a while since we first snuck out so "long ago". Life has been pretty hectic since then. Span and I both started summer school, which is the perfect method for enjoying a constant 8 hours with eachother! I have to say I love just sitting next to her, even though its mostly in silence, intently listening to the teacher, as I inch my leg forward to rub against hers or gently move my hand accross her forearm. Its that tacit bond that really reveals how close we are to eachother, that we can literally sit next to eachother with virtually no communication and still have an awesome time. I call it the aura of Span. Somehow when she's next to me, no matter whats going on, it automatically becomes awesome. It automatically lights up my face with that foolish smile. I notice myself gazing at Mr. Levine, our teacher, always with a smile on my face. I'm glad to believe that he thinks its because his lectures are interesting (which they are incredibly funny and insightful), but in actuality its because I have the most beautiful girl in the world sitting next to me, and thats all I really need. And even though I have to do 4+ hours of homework a night, and have never worked harder in my life, it is without a doubt worth it. Worth it just to see Span, just to be with her and enjoy her presence. Every day I grow closer to her, every day I enjoy so many new laughs and smiles, so many hugs and kisses, so much happiness and love. Now thats awesome baby. I love you Span.

So anyways, now that I've filled you with my overdramatic feelings, its time to get down to that exciting stuff I was referring to earlier (sorry for going off on a tangent like that). Last night, after getting home at about 11:45 (me from a John Prine concert, Span from her parents' indian friends house), we decided Operation Sneak Here In Twilight (O.S.H.I.T.) was go (ok, ok, that was the worst acronym ever, but I did my best...I know, that just makes it more pathetic). So we talked for a bit more, and prepared to go. Span took a shower, carefully mentally and emotionally preparing for the night ahead. Nick sat on his fat ass, contemplating what his life would be on drugs if he was this crazy off them. Oh well, sometimes you just gotta suck it up and do it, even if you're afraid. I watch movies and hear about adventures and always get those surges of inspiration to go out and be crazy. What the hell is the point of living life if you're not going to take advantage of it? Fuck that boring shit. If I'm put on this shitty piece of rock, given a life that most people would simply be content with, I'm going to flip off the world and doing something fuckin' crazy. Thank goodness Span just makes sure I follow through with it and dont just talk alot .

So anyways, now that I'm mentally prepared, Span calls me and we just sit there on the phone, not saying a word, for 20 minutes. It was surprising because it wasn't boring at all, it was very soothing. It managed to calm me down and stop me from going out of my mind with anxiety, and by the time it was 1:28, I was ready to go. I got out my fireladder, and noisely disassembled it (took about 10 minutes). I climbed down it (freakiest thing ever cause you're swining all over the place), jumped in my car, and sped off. Quickly I dialed Span's number to update her on my status. Operation OSHIT was underway and thus far successfull.

Upon arrival at Span's house, after parking my car, I approached her window. She seemed more tense than usual, and I later found out it was because her palms were sweaty. After cliffhanging over her window for a couple of seconds, she dropped into my arms and thankfully I caught her so that she was standing up as she hit the ground. I could not have been more relieved because she wasn't wearing long pants.

Span had the spantacular idea of going back to my house. We were both smiling idiotically considering the circumstances and I distinctly remember looking over at her in the darkness and smiling. She looked so beautiful and sexy. Its hard to believe that any girl, this late at night, could look so gorgeous. But Span looked far beyond that.

Anyways, we arrived at my house. Span nervously climbed up the fire ladder. I quickly followed. When I got to the top, I looked around and didn't see her. I was confused. But a quick glance under the covers revealed my babygirl, and I hopped in after her and grabbed her, giving her a monster hug. We turned off all the lights, and lets just say...it got very romantic. It was an incredibly hot expirience. I started off licking her nipples and sucking her neck, trying to sexy up the mood. Lets just say...it didn't take long , and our clothes were quickly off. After all, we only had two hours. So we smooched around a bit more, Span licked the dick here and there. We tried to do the 69, but after jamming my fatass in Span's face, we both became very discouraged and gave up. However, we did give eachother head, and Span finally came to my oral, giving her the "best orgasm ever." Her humping my tongue was pretty damn sexy. She finished me up in about 20 minutes (Give or take 18 minutes...mostly take) and we fell in eachothers arms.

After that, she layed on me so romantically I cannot begin to describe. Her words were articulate and  beautiful, such a pleasure to listen to. We softly conversed in my dark room, the whole asleep, the moon shining full outside. We talked about our kids. It was a funny conversation, lots of little chuckles and laughs, and we were both dozing off here and there. I couldn't help it, it was without a doubt the most relaxing, comforting, and romantic moment I have ever expirienced. It made me look forward to the future with the most blissful joy. Sleeping next to Span is going to be awesome.

Span dressed and then threw my clothes at me, helping me get clothed. We climbed back down the ladder. The nerves were rising again, but we laughed the ride home and tried to stay calm. After noisely assembling the ladder, span climbed up it (upsidedown, sorry baby) and into her room. I put the ladder back in my car and drove off. A quick call confirmed everything was okay, and she soothed me all the way home until I lay down in my bed. What a perfect end to a perfect night, kissing my baby goodbye on the phone, laying her down to sleep. I know she's always laying next to me and will never leave my side, nor will I leave hers.

I had an awesome dream that night. Then I realized it had come true.

Nick

Nick and I are officially the stupidest people alive.

So one day we both come up with a brilliant idea... LETS SNEAK OUT OF OUR HOUSES!!!!nvm the consquences, alot of ppl do this, im sure we can pull it off. i mean it cant be that hard, just pop of the window screen, and hop out. my window didnt look that far from the ground and i figured with Nicks tallness, it should be pretty easy. Now getting Nick out of his  house might be tougher, but luckily he had this fire escape chain ladder thing that he could use. So then were like YEA, this is should be FUN. we attempted to brainstorm everything that could go wrong, but w/e the plan was still a GO. so then like this morning i suppose it would be, at 2 am, nick comes over. then i proceeded to crawl out of my window, and as i hung off the ledge, i realized that SHIT< its not a short drop. but, i sucked it up and dropped and nick was there to kinda break my fall, and it wasnt too painful, so that was good. newho , we ran like crazy back to his van, and we're both like out of breath and trying to be calm, and laughing all at the same time. so then we go to my lake, and we chilled for a few minutes on our dock thingie, and then decide to go to the play ground. So the playground was cool, but then Nick got a little freaked out, so we decided to walk around the second part of our lake which leads to supertarget. mmmm that was pretty freaking awesome, very romantic to be strolling on a lake at 2 am in the morning hehe. so after that walk it was time to go back to the van cause i didnt want nick to get too freaked out heeh, although i told him i was there to protect him. newho, we drive around in the van, and im freaking hungry so we try to look for some fast food place. but no. where are the freaking 24 hr fast food places when u need them!!!????. *sigh*, so then we drove around a little more and relaxed together, and i sang nursery rhymes to nick... heheeh awwww hes soo cute. by now it was almost 4 and so we decide its time to get me back in my house. Alright so heres where the story gets a little fucked up. *and no this does not refer to us* we get to my house, and nick takes out this ladder he brought. and then when we put it up against my house we realized that shit, there is no fucking way i can even reach my window on that thing. so were like, ok lets stay calm, and i decide to go get my ladder which proves to be only a little taller but still not enough to get back in. by now im a little freaked out cause we both realize that now we dont know how to get me back in my room. ok, so were still trying to stay calm and we try to think of how i can reach my window. we decide that getting nick's chain escape ladder and hooking it up to my window with a pole is not gonna work...too loud and too heavy. so once again were like shit. so we go back to his van, and were like 'think think think'...option 2: i wait till morning when my dad gets up to work and somehow sneak in my door...right. so now we realize that we are officially screwed. and i start to flip out, cause theres no way in hell i want to have to fess up to my rents and risk death. yea so now im really freaking out and nick yells at me to stop it and smacks me. but im still freaked out. so then we're like , wut if we unscrew his ladder so we'll have one long one that will reach high enough. ok, that could work if only we had TOOLS. man, these white ppl, i have no idea why but somehow nick had a tool set in his van...neways, we go back out to get his ladder so we can see if theres a way to unscrew it. alas, there was no f***ing way that could work. once again i start freaking out and nick begins to yell at me again and tells me we have to prepare to be able to tell my parents. of course im still not ready...and i am still flipping out, and feel really faint cause im really hungry too. So then im liek NICK , lets buy a ladder. and nick is like "span thats a lot of money...", but im like , "or some collapsable thing thats cost efficient". but nick is like "ok, but only problem is what store would be open at this time?"...so then i think and WUPAH!!!!! i gOT IT !!!! WALMART!!!!!!!!!!! i have never loved that store more than i did at that moment. but we were still unsure if it was open , but decide its our best shot. but first we had to go to nicks house and get some money. so we get there and we're like, shit, is he busted? cause there were like a bunch of lights on. but neways, nick goes and climbs the ladder and im waiting in the van , freaked casue i dont want him to get in trouble...then the garage door opens and nick comes out with this long hooked pole? apparently, he had to wake his mom and tell her that there was an emergency at my house and of course, she was a bit sleepy and groggily followed his story. newho, the pole was gonna be our last minute option...as in id have to climb it...right. so we drive to walmart, and were like "is it open?" im pretty sure my mom told me it was open 24 hrs, but we checked the door and ...YAY it was!!!!!!!!!!1 man i love that retarded store. so we go in and find the LAdders...yay, so it turned out that it was only 50 bucks or something, and nick of course being the rich kid that he is, had more than enough...and of course we had to grab some reeses and rice crispy treats cause we needed some nourishment.  let me just say, that it was the weirdest thing to have two teenagers (us) who are ndn and white, walk out of walmart carrying a 16 ft ladder (collapsable of course) at 5 or so in the morning...yea that was interesting. so neways, we jammed it in his van and drove back to my house. once again we stealthily *made a lot of noise* figured out how to work the ladder and prop it up against my house. Yay !!!!! It was high enough!!!!!!!!! nick and i said good bye and then i climbed up the ladder and into the safety of my room. meanwhile, nick ran quickly off with the ladder and noisily crammed it into the van and took off. i called him to let him know that everything was clear and i said goodnight and finally went to sleep at 5 40 or so. what, a night. so, will we ever sneak out of our houses again? maybe, after all, we now have a 16 foot ladder that we can use .

hahahha, man nick the things we do together... i love you soo much hehee, thanks for the awesome and um, adventure filled Night, or morning? LOVE YOU!!

span

ok so last night i was like "nick, my family is going to NASA tomorrow" and he was like "!!!!" and i was like "!!!!!" and he was like "wuts the PLAN" and i was like "I DONT KNOW." so we decided to wing it. and so this morning, my mom wakes me up at like 9 and is liek "come eat pancakes before i LEAVE". so of course i get excited cause that means they are going, and so i waited for like EVER for them to leave...which is tough when ur parents are obviously gettting old "where are my keys????""iono where are my glasses???" "IM Oooooolllldddddd..."hahah. so finally they get out of the house, and i called cracker nut and im like "DUDE get ur ass here." so he comes and were like YAY. and we go lay down on the bed and share a romantic moment together in each others arms...nick is soo cute i love him to death. hehe hes soo soft and comfy, and i love hugging him. so after that we take pictures of OURSELVES!!!!!!!! yay, those turned out awesome and we look so cuteeeeeeeeeee!!! im glad we finally have pics of ourselves together. so then we go down and eat lunch, and look at some pics of my ndn family...hahah nick is scared now. apparently we all look pissed off.hahah those white ppl who smile too much. lol so after that we went back upstairs...made some looooveeee and got down the afternoon? newho, that was soo much fun relacking with my quishy hehe. so finally he freaked, and he left. but we talked for like the entire day...which was Freaking awesome. and then we started talking bout colleges and we actually made a list of the colleges we will apply too !!!! yay, progress...now for getting in .haha. mmmm i cant wait to go to college with nick  :)...i love him so much and i know staying together is more than worth it...i cant wait till we start our lives togther *dreamy look* haaha mmmm LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH SQUISHY!!!!

love,

 span

Ok so, I guess I'll make this post. First of all, school is out, so we're possessed by a plethera of joy, and the best part is, we get to go back in a week for summer school! Yipppy!!!!!!!! But let me write about the last days of school first, cause they were fuckin' awesome.

Wednesday morning me and Span met at school as early as possible and instead of loafing around like retards that had no place to go, we headed straight off to Starbucks. Our days of money scavenging brutally came to an end as I walked in packin' 4 twenties. Eat that starbucks. Anyways, so me and Span got these tall frappucino, they werent tall, they were actually small, but some dipshit marketing agent decided to name the smalls talls just to fuck with the heads of already idiotic Americans. Anyways, it was really really good. We talked and I drilled oil wells in my drink, which led to a nice discussion about drilling for oil in antarctica. It was really really fun, and all we were doing was doubling up with laughter the whole time. Next, we checked in and started chillin' in the Cafeteria. Span is the awomest person for keeping me company, and we kept on smiling and giggling and she was giddy like a little girl, and kept me pepped up and preparing for my precal. So after that she left, and I took my exam. I was really glad Span had made me study, and I hope I did well. That night, we had a great time talking, and we went to bed on the phone content with how awesome our relationship is.

We woke up thursday with Span driving over to my house. I anxiously awaited her arrival, and ran to the door to open it. Unfortunately, I spilled a glass of water, and had to run back, and only just made it in time. But then again, I do live on the edge. Mostly because I'm sexy. As soon as I opened the door, my jaw dropped. There in front of me was standing the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. She was dressed in a blue shirt that said "The Life of the Party", ahh, how true. And a black skirt that was long and flowing, just like her gorgeous hair. I finally had my emperical proof that Span was getting more beautiful by the day. I let her in and gave her a gigantic hug, and we set out about our bussiness. First we sort of chilled in my room, she tortured me and showed me some boob and let me grab some of that sweet ass she has. Upon the arrival of the maid, we proceeded downstairs and started jammin' on the drums. Seriously, Span could be a musician if she wanted to. Afer that, we turned on Latin music (the maid went ballistic I'm sure) and started bustin' a groove. I hadn't danced with Span since that hot night at the ball masque, and she was of course tearin' up my tile. Unfortunately, my hips were locked and I was stiffer than a dead man's erect penis. But I still managed to have fun, mostly because even the worst dancer (me) is still awesome when combined with Span's uber skills. I love dancing with Span, Im so glad we got to. So later we got to school and were talking with Julie and Tiwa. They of course were informing me how whipped I was, but fuck those crackas. It was funny though, but just cause I flinch does not mean I'm a wuss!!! Span gave me a hug goodbye and a kiss goodluck (hallelujah!) and I took my engineering exam. NINETY-FUCKIN-EIGHT. I brought my grade up to an A. I was smitten, and immediatly called Span to tell her to good news. She told me she was proud, and I felt really special. We decided to go to the D'Vinci code, and I was really glad Span was able to go (she invited us). I bought her ticket (very masculine) and after getting snacks, we sat down. Span layed "comfortably" in my arms, and the movie was funny. Span has the cutest little comments like "teeheehee they made it really bright around his penis." Her insight was very helpful, as I didn't know old men had penises. Fortunately, she was able to comfort me (with her small scream). After laughing at Blake and throwing paper balls at shamez, the movie ended, I hugged her goodbye and did the nose thing, finalizing it with a smile. She smiled back, and I almost ran into the door. We got home and talked on aim for a while, and then went to Nirav's party. I was keepin' on the down low cause Span's mom was there and kept looking at me. I gave her that dejected look, and she totally bought it. We watched the speeches, and span started to tear up (I mean uhhh, I started to tear up). It was all so emotional. So we went home and talked and had an awesome conversation about how much we loved eachother before hittin' the sack. I remember vaguely calling her at 2 or so in the morning just to hear her beautiful voice before falling back asleep. How I love her.

She called me this morning and kept me company for several hours. We then talked on AIM, as we have been, about such fun topics as fat polish people, tomasz (same thing), frying pans with Jesus imprints, and eachother. It is all very fun stuff.

Anyways, thats the last three days. Its been freaking awesome, and it seems like every time I see her its a reminder as to why I'm in love with her. Thankyou for everything Span, and never forget that I'm your baby and your my babygirl.

Love your cracker nut forever,

Nick

            There’s a girl in my life. Her name is Span, and while this writing is going to probably seem trite, I’ve just got to express my love and this is one of the few ways I know how. Ever since I met her she’s been that guiding lantern in my life. Whenever I stray from the path, she brings me back on, sure to guide me to the destination of love. Whenever I do something stupid or ignore a responsibility, she gives me a kind whack over the head (and it truly is kind) and reminds me I need to do it. Just the other day in NHS I was spitting off some stupid stuff about how I didn’t want to do it for some stupid reason like it was too much work. But she told me it was a good idea for college apps and in addition pointed out that we would be able to spend a lot more time together. Of course I joined, and I’m glad she was there to prevent me from being an idiot. And whenever I get over worried or worked up in something, she calms me down. The other day when my chest was hurting, she told me it was probably just a soar muscle. And when I told her how overwhelmed I was, she promised she would help me finish all my work. How many girls would do that? How many people would do that? Sacrifice their precious time and effort to help another. That’s altruism. And that’s impossible to come by these days. But I guess anything is possible in love. She’s that person I can have a good time with; not only my lover, but my whimsical best friend. I dance with her, “sing” to her, and joke with her. She tells me jokes and teases me, but its always fun. Just tonight we pretended we were crazy civil war soldiers who were shooting at each other and I shot her big toe and pinky and she shot my ass and **** off. I know, its harsh, but eventually she sewed it back on. Yeah, ok, most people are gonna call us freaks, but hell, its fun, its entertaining, and it always makes me smile and brightens my day. But most of all, she’s my lover. It seems like I say I love you every 10 minutes, if not to her then in my head or dreams. And while some would say its overused and lost its meaning, I know it hasn’t, and I feel it hasn’t. I still feel that love of which I speak and write and it still feels pretty friggen good. Amazing. Awesome. Indescribable. All those words that I’ve ever used and all these words Im using, that is what love is. To be honest, I should write Span a lot more. Hell I should write her every day to profess my love, but I don’t. I’m far from perfect, but the beauty of Span is she always understands. I don’t know how she puts up with some of the stuff I do, but she does, and I think the kindness she displays in such times is perhaps one of the greatest expressions of her love.

What can I say? I love her. I love her so much. I need her. That’s why I mumble in my sleep and cry (literally, though I haven’t told her) out for her when I don’t have her. That’s why I let all the guys call me whipped. Because I’m at the point where I have all I need: Span. And honestly, while other stuff does matter, as long as I have her I know I can survive. And I know I’ll always have her, so fuck all of you that say I won’t, because I will. Love is all I have and all I’m filled with. I love Span more than anyone could imagine and I thank God every day for the fact that I have her. It truly is amazing that a girl from south India could meet a boy from Texas let alone hook up with him. That’s a miracle and I know it’s a sign she’ll be mine forever. I love you Span, forever and ever, and I will never let you go.

Your Squishy Foreber and eber wit wots of wuv,

Nick

“When you have seen as much of life as I have, you will not underestimate the power of obsessive love.”

“We can only learn to love by loving.”

“There is no remedy for love but to love more.”

“Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.”

“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”

“Love is everything it's cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.”

“To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.”

Span’s Favorite ;): “The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.”

“To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.”

“Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age.”

“To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.”

“To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.”

“For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks, the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.”

“I don’t think anyone can DO anything that would make him worthy of love. Love is a gift and cannot be earned. It can only be given.”

“The important thing was to love rather than to be loved.”

And finally “One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love.”

I LOVE YOU SPAN.